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THE CALLING

       Anita met Jesus Christ in a tiny Pentecostal church in Silverton, NJ on a Sunday night in April. 1982. A shy non-practicing Catholic girl, in bondage for many years and haunted by many ghosts of  abuse, rape, shame and hopelessness. A glorious healing light burst through that night, even though she trembled under the growling, accusing voice of the  tattoo-biceped, ex marine, who slammed his fist on his  worn pulpit. His glittering black eyes bore through her.

   "If you die tonight in a car accident.. Will you go to heaven or burn in hell?"

       She declared the salvation prayer and in that small church, Anita finally found a loving, accepting family that she had always wanted. She bloomed, making up for many lost years, enrolling in college  and graduating at the top of her class, Magna cum laude.  The earning of that degree was interrupted though, by the courtship with a demented man who threatened to kill her if she didn't marry him.  That domestic violent season which lasted almost two years   nearly took away her  exuberant faith and  new-found  nursing home ministry. But Christ never abandoned her.

Healing took place and resilience set her back on track. She met  lead guitarist, Chris Durante at a church picnic where he invited her to front his Christian rock band with him. The Lord began to hone Anita in her new role as lead vocalist-lyricist of "The Promise" and Chris, her and the band shared the Gospel of Christ to the NJ, PA and NY maximum security prisons, family festivals and community showcases.

Anita also grew in leadership positions, teaching behavior modification classes at Nutri-System Weight Loss Centers and as a youth advocate for  Youth Advocate Program. Just as she was enjoying her life, strange and debilitating  symptoms sent her to the hospital where she was given a diagnosis of Lyme disease. 1992 was riddled with hospital intravaneous Rosephin  treatments and Amomoxicillin antibiotic.

The next several years, with her immune system breaking down and battling many episodes of bronchial infections she almost died from carbon monoxide poisoning from her apartment's broken heater. The carbon monoxide did serious damage to her brain and deep depression set in and she was unable to sustain employment.

 But God wasn't finished with her yet. She found herself once more with hope and found another accepting family at non-profit Christian outreach,  Love in the Name of Christ, in the Fall of 1998.  Executive Director,  Carolyn Eyerman and project Manager, Joan Hodem saw  things in Anita she never knew she had. The six years there taught her even more about people and serving their needs. This was also where her journey with the guitar started!

Finding a Cure for Dystonia

Finding a Cure for Dystonia

Finding a Cure For Dystonia

Finding a Cure for dystonia

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Giant Slayer

Chasing 'em down, one at a time...

So, Anita Ivette Ferrer, was a gentle and fragile girl, easily frightened by the Outer Limits electricity monster and intimidated by her mother's raging temper tandtrums. Nonetheless, she had a dream. She sketched and sang and composed poetry  in careful calligraphy hand.

 A traumatic and threatening  encounter with a bullying classmate in her favorite art class shattered her pre-conceived notion that people were kind and could be trusted. The bullying continued till graduation day and she wore her cloak of shame and rejection like a weighted anchor. Doors don't swing open wide for  those who've suffered bullying,  abuse, poverty and/or molestation.

 But  in  April of 1982, Jesus Christ  opened wide  the door of grace and Anita walked through. Decades of deeply ingrained traumas and negative events were assuagged and she began to see more clearly that she had worth and God had a plan for her life..

Enrolling at Brookdale Community College, Anita  discovered that door of favor swung wide open and she rediscovered her poetry, singing and art. No longer fearful and distrusting of people, she was deeply curious and disturbed about injustice and social issues. er professors were impressed with her  empathy and passion to pursue studies in the humanities. Graduating with high honors despite great financial hardship and a violent failed, marriage, Anita knew that the best was yet to come.

     Anita's journey with Christ led her to chase and slay many giants, particularly health.  Lyme Disease  came in 1992 and then  carbon monoxide poisoning almost took her life in  1997.All during this time, Anita chronicled her life events through  her journaling and then came an invitation to learn the guitar.

   Her health lost it;s resilience from the damaging environmental assaults on her nervous system, but her love for composing songs and performing continued. Then were  menntoring broken women,  youth outreach and hospice. Outwardly, it looked as if Anita's continual suffering and down-spiraling health would  diminish her calling, but herdevotion and trust in Christ's promises was her saving grace and anchor.

Despite her present and most daunting giant, oromandibular-TMJ Dystonia from mercury poisoning, she continues to sing, write about and express her gratitude of facing death...and helping others to live!

Anita hopes to find a cure for the Dystonia so that she can travel and tour, speaking and singing about overcoming and getting better with age.Her heart beats for the glorious expectation of God's best through her. She hopes that her music and art will provoke intimacy with Christ and a deep empathy for hurt and broken people. She champions the  underrdog because she is a giant slayer.

 

In these turbulent and uncertain times, I must focus on peace.  I am a warrior-soldier, serving under  my commander-in-chef,  Jesus Christ.

 

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I CAN STILL CRY 

  Greetings in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ
I’m still waging a war against the present affliction, ,Dystonia, since 2007. Though My ability to pursue my formerly active gigging  schedule has been temporarily  curtailed, I know the  my message and prayers songs I’ve written over the years must not be forgotten.. I have never been one to be driven to write hit songs. The human condition and my  experiences as a Daughter of the most High God Jehovah have mostly been my most precious and valuable inspiration that I pray will touch some broken person.     When an artist  abides in a season of disablement or crisis, one learns to improvise and be creative in sharing their music and art That is why I decided to include a  new category  The Message Behind the Songs.    i pray you are moved to share my songs with others going through difficult journeys.      I covet your prayers for my complete recovery and/or financial support of my music ministry, Brave Flame Productions and Outreach via my  website.May Abba God bless you richly for your compassion.
 
 
I Can Sill Cry was inspired after seeing pictures and reading about the bombing of the Alfred P Murrah Federal building in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. I was so struck by the picture of Firefighter Chris Fields holding  tiny baby  Baylee Almon in his arms. I cried for some time pondering the utter inexplicable senselessness of hapless victims suddenly being   taken out by a bomb As I thought about the  tragedy, I  prayed that God would send Jesus and His angels to comfort the  hungry homeless, battered women and tortured souls from every realm of  suffering. And we prayer warriors have the privileged responsibility to stand in the gap for all  people suffering human injustices. My prayer is that my listeners would look being the production of my songs to focus on the message and the passion-compassion that I bring to the music. I also pray that the subject matter provokes intercessors  to address and make a difference.
 
  This song was originally  recorded  as a sparse acoustic ballad on my Taylor Guitar.  It was recorded t  Naja Bakin’s studio and he did a marvelous job capturing my voice. I know I have done my job as a journalist-songwriter when people take the time to engage me and share their input.
 

I Can Still Cry @copyright BMI Brave Flame Productions

Whenever I pause to catch the weather and the news. It’s mostly tragic, biased media views.
Somehow I’m baffled every time. That I can still see through child-like eyes.

It’s hard to believe as I muse and ponder,
The myriad experience and the places where I’ve wandered.
The beauty I cherish and the dreams I still hold, Can never be stolen by those who’ve turned cold.

And I can still cry when I see babies beaten. And people left homeless and for days haven’t eaten.
Seeing a woman stripped of her soul and dignity. While her man clings to his abusive revelry.

There are times while in prayer I would whisper and weep, At the carnage of souls killed in the wink of an eye.
And there’s no one to remedy all the hurt, So I pray for justice in the sweet by and by.

If I cannot feel the wound of a broken heart Or tremble at the thought of my Savior’s blood that was spilt.
When I’ve become numb, lost my passion for life,Than I know an impenetrable fortress was built.

Thank God I can cry for the damages done. Thank God I can cry for the battles being won.
My heart is still soft through betrayals of friends.And that is the glory that my heart always mend.

Thank God I can still cry.

My message songs are available for purchase via my music ministry website and your loves gifts and prayers help Mark and I to continue to serve the needs of the precious broken people in our communities.God bless you and thank you for reading!

https://anitaivetteferrerasburyparkangel.org/

WHAT IT’S LIKE to LIVE with a Movement Disorder 

So, I am still praying and believing that one day soon I will be relieved of these tormenting tongue, neck a mad esophageal spasms. Those of us who endure a movement disorder are still misunderstood. Despite the plethora of information on the internet, Dystonia and Parthenon’s organizations, people are still suffering. My prayer is that as you read this blog, and watch the videos, you will grown in hope for your healing.

Movement Disorder sufferers endure by living each day hour by hour. There are so many stressful variables relating to a Dystonia or Tourette’s Syndrome life. The main one is struggling to maintain normalcy, productivity and creativity. There is also the physical aspect of the non-stop spasms that cause me exhaustion by mid day. The second issue is the great expense of obtaining a diagnosis and treatments. Since 2007, our quest for a cure for the Dystonia has cost us over 30,000 dollars. We have spend untold thousands of hours also in research with little results.

There is also the emotional aspect of isolation, shame, and loneliness. As an aspiring singer-songwriter, hoping to establish a rewarding music career and ministry, I was bubbling and loved to be around people. I was well-respected and in-demand at fine dining establishments and wore beautiful evening ware to perform my jazz standards repertoire. I also loved he physical challenge of delivering my phone books during the day where I made my own hours and was an independent contractor.

In 2007,, Dystonia started to unravel my life after the visit to a local dentist who extracted an amalgam filling from the troublesome back molar. That lead to rabbit holes unfathomable and untold misery/

We came upon a YouTube video about a Dystonia doctor who had success with many Dystonia and Tourette’s I contacted the doctor and he prescribed an acrylic mouth appliance that was supposed to help realign my bite and restructure the jaw nerves, Sadly, the appliance didn’t work for me. for after several months, my jaw spasms were so violent that my own back molars wore down almost to my gum line and eating or drinking any very hot or very cold food was so painful. I also bit m y tongue, till bleeding and the sides of the mouth because the bite shifted so much since not wearing my mouth appliance.

After 15 years of suffering ever debilitating symptoms, my search for even minor relief grew more urgent. I continued to invest innumerable hours online, studying and researching ( knowledge is power) medical websites regarding the anatomy of the jaw, brain physiology and the relationship between the gut and the brain, I deduced that Dystonia and other movement disorders could be affected by one or all of the aforementioned variables. I must admit, as I gained more knowledge about how the brain, neurotransmitters, hormones and immune system operates I was sure toxins and/or spinal-cranial dysfunctions could contribute to a movement disorder. I also felt a deeper empathy and desire to love on and share pertinent information with people suffering from incurable diseases and afflictions.

As I bring this blog to a close, I ask you to have an open mind to all possibilities of restoration and healing. There are a few options for Dystonia and Tourette’s Syndrome.: DBS Deep Brain Stimulation, ( a very complicated and serious surgery) . Not interested in having my head cut open. There are monthly injections of Botox to deaden the nerve. There is also Jesus, the Healer and deliverer. Following Him has shown me that he performed many astounding miracles including an epileptic boy in the Gospel of Luke 9 40-44. Jesus healed me from Lyme Disease and from Carbon Monoxide poisoning and I believe He will heal me from Dystonia also!

He has been faithful to me since I gave my life to Him in April of 1982. He has done amazing things in my life and in the people I’d ministered to in hospitals, in maximum security prisons, after my Gospel concerts and even at funerals and to people on their death bed.

With this condition, I have many days of being almost overwhelmed with grief, hopelessness and/or exhaustion, but my lifeline is to my ever- present and everlasting hope, Jesus Christ. He gives me the strength to continue singing and playing my guitar and especially to love on people regardless of how I’m suffering.l

My next assignment from Jesus i to record and produce a special video addressing the plight of precious sex-trafficked children. Jesus gave me the courage to pursue this project through Maura, head of Student Film Makers website. Though my spasms embarrassed me, I wish to encourage you all to pursue your dreams and don’t allow anything or anyone to deter you from achieving God’s wonderful plan for your life!I

Do our research, seek out doctors and treatments, but also consider Jesus.

Be FRUITFUL! 

So, a dear friend sent me a very informative link about food storage after the grid shuts down. Preparing for very hard times is becoming a priority for wise people and I am thankful that I have women friends who are sharp, innovative and concerned about loved ones, friends and neighbors’ survival in the near future. You men will also find the prepping blogs useful and informative.

When my husband Mark and I lived in our riverfront home, I had a wonderful garden where I grew corn, tomatoes and squash. We saved a lot of money at the grocery store and it was a delight to watch the seeds sprout into full-grown vegetables for cooking and eating. We would be wise to utilize our backyards now and practice growing our own organic produce.

I recently watched some excellent preparing videos and hearing bout my friend Teresa’s canning protocol, I decided to include a section, (in my blog) on living abundantly when scarcity and hardship abounds. I asked Teresa of she would partner with me about prepping blogs and she obliged. She has a plethora of experience, information and success in many prepping areas.

It would behoove all of us, to have an open mind and research preparing for end times as much as possible because we cannot depend on the government for help. We women are blessed with great emotional and physical resiliency and according to Proverbs 31, we achieve and succeed greatly in many areas, including

Let us review from Proverbs 31 about her wealth of talents and abilities which include resourcefulness, organization, farming, sewing, real estate dealings and community-civic affairs.

10 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.15 She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:29 “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.31 Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

I encourage all you amazing sisters to seek God’s wisdom for how you are t prepare your family for the coming difficult times. God be with you in this prepping journey!

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The Anointing, His Presence

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Praise and worship collection during my difficult health journey. Jazzy-folly and pop rock Gospel originals.

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Christian jazz hip-hop, neo soul and pop-urban . Special guest producer, Reverend Kevin Nunn, Cross Row Productions.

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MY debut album, song collection Produced by Ernie Wilkens, Gary Dates and Daryl Dahrouge. An eclectric collection of folk-rock, jazz hip-hop and jazz rock.

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Lead Guitarist, Chris Durante

Guitar Artistry

So,  I met Chris Durante at a church picnic in the summer of 1989 and he asked me if I would front his  Christian hard Rock Band, The Promise. I was just a folk soprano who sang a capella with twin sisters in ursing homes. Who knew that God was preparing me for greater ministry and service  to people through my non profit Brave Flame  Productions.  Chris 's artistry has embellished most of my songs and albums over the years and  we are grateful for the influence and inspiration of the the Holy Spirit through us frail and fragile instruments!

John Mulrenan, producer-engineer, Acorn Digital, Howell, NJ has also been a long-time friend and music partner. He has lent his artistry to my projects on keyboards, piano, bass and programming.  His expertise has been invaluable. He is an underrated and transcendent talent!

And last, but not least is my  talented  husband, Mark, who has been my sound engineer.since we married. His extensive  experience  doing sound for NJ's best  bands has been  a valuable asset to my music. Bless God for giving me such a devoted  husband!

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serving people/filling needs

All People Matter

From singing and comforting elderly, lonely people to mentoring kids from  challenged family backgrounds, Anita understands people.

God Loves People

Areas of Ministry

1982  Nursing Home Ministry

1989   Maximum Security Prisons & Correctional Facilities

The Promise Christian Band

1998   Love in the Name of Christ  Christian non-Profit

Coordinator: Just the Right Touch

One on One Mentoring,  Helping  welfare recipients & displaced homemakers transition to the work force, supplying appropriate business clothing & resumes & mentoring, 

Youth Advocate YAP, Youth Advocate Program.

Mentoring youth in social & life skills: liaison between parents/guardians  with  social service agencies

2002 Vocal & Guitar Instructor 

Beginner to advance vocal instruction

2002-2017  Telephone Book distributor PDC

2005  Brave Flame Productions & Outreach inception non-profit entity

Homeless outreach, food & Clothing, Evangelism, Hospice & Bedside  Ministry, Funeral and Wake Ministry

Music & Entertainment 

Church & Family Events, Private Corporate functions,  First Communion & Baptism  events