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THE CALLING

       Anita met Jesus Christ in a tiny Pentecostal church in Silverton, NJ on a Sunday night in April. 1982. A shy non-practicing Catholic girl, in bondage for many years and haunted by many ghosts of  abuse, rape, shame and hopelessness. A glorious healing light burst through that night, even though she trembled under the growling, accusing voice of the  tattoo-biceped, ex marine, who slammed his fist on his  worn pulpit. His glittering black eyes bore through her.

   "If you die tonight in a car accident.. Will you go to heaven or burn in hell?"

       She declared the salvation prayer and in that small church, Anita finally found a loving, accepting family that she had always wanted. She bloomed, making up for many lost years, enrolling in college  and graduating at the top of her class, Magna cum laude.  The earning of that degree was interrupted though, by the courtship with a demented man who threatened to kill her if she didn't marry him.  That domestic violent season which lasted almost two years   nearly took away her  exuberant faith and  new-found  nursing home ministry. But Christ never abandoned her.

Healing took place and resilience set her back on track. She met  lead guitarist, Chris Durante at a church picnic where he invited her to front his Christian rock band with him. The Lord began to hone Anita in her new role as lead vocalist-lyricist of "The Promise" and Chris, her and the band shared the Gospel of Christ to the NJ, PA and NY maximum security prisons, family festivals and community showcases.

Anita also grew in leadership positions, teaching behavior modification classes at Nutri-System Weight Loss Centers and as a youth advocate for  Youth Advocate Program. Just as she was enjoying her life, strange and debilitating  symptoms sent her to the hospital where she was given a diagnosis of Lyme disease. 1992 was riddled with hospital intravaneous Rosephin  treatments and Amomoxicillin antibiotic.

The next several years, with her immune system breaking down and battling many episodes of bronchial infections she almost died from carbon monoxide poisoning from her apartment's broken heater. The carbon monoxide did serious damage to her brain and deep depression set in and she was unable to sustain employment.

 But God wasn't finished with her yet. She found herself once more with hope and found another accepting family at non-profit Christian outreach,  Love in the Name of Christ, in the Fall of 1998.  Executive Director,  Carolyn Eyerman and project Manager, Joan Hodem saw  things in Anita she never knew she had. The six years there taught her even more about people and serving their needs. This was also where her journey with the guitar started!

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Joy in the Journey

Giant Slayer

Chasing 'em down, one at a time...

So, Anita Ivette Ferrer, was a gentle and fragile girl, easily frightened by the Outer Limits electricity monster and intimidated by her mother's raging temper tandtrums. Nonetheless, she had a dream. She sketched and sang and composed poetry  in careful calligraphy hand.

 A traumatic and threatening  encounter with a bullying classmate in her favorite art class shattered her pre-conceived notion that people were kind and could be trusted. The bullying continued till graduation day and she wore her cloak of shame and rejection like a weighted anchor. Doors don't swing open wide for  those who've suffered bullying,  abuse, poverty and/or molestation.

 But  in  April of 1982, Jesus Christ  opened wide  the door of grace and Anita walked through. Decades of deeply ingrained traumas and negative events were assuagged and she began to see more clearly that she had worth and God had a plan for her life..

Enrolling at Brookdale Community College, Anita  discovered that door of favor swung wide open and she rediscovered her poetry, singing and art. No longer fearful and distrusting of people, she was deeply curious and disturbed about injustice and social issues. er professors were impressed with her  empathy and passion to pursue studies in the humanities. Graduating with high honors despite great financial hardship and a violent failed, marriage, Anita knew that the best was yet to come.

     Anita's journey with Christ led her to chase and slay many giants, particularly health.  Lyme Disease  came in 1992 and then  carbon monoxide poisoning almost took her life in  1997.All during this time, Anita chronicled her life events through  her journaling and then came an invitation to learn the guitar.

   Her health lost it;s resilience from the damaging environmental assaults on her nervous system, but her love for composing songs and performing continued. Then were  menntoring broken women,  youth outreach and hospice. Outwardly, it looked as if Anita's continual suffering and down-spiraling health would  diminish her calling, but herdevotion and trust in Christ's promises was her saving grace and anchor.

Despite her present and most daunting giant, oromandibular-TMJ Dystonia from mercury poisoning, she continues to sing, write about and express her gratitude of facing death...and helping others to live!

Anita hopes to find a cure for the Dystonia so that she can travel and tour, speaking and singing about overcoming and getting better with age.Her heart beats for the glorious expectation of God's best through her. She hopes that her music and art will provoke intimacy with Christ and a deep empathy for hurt and broken people. She champions the  underrdog because she is a giant slayer.

 

In these turbulent and uncertain times, I must focus on peace.  I am a warrior-soldier, serving under  my commander-in-chef,  Jesus Christ.

 

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WOW! 

 I woke up to a new week. Sunday was very challenging because I had great trouble breathing. My pastor asked me to give the message, in addition to leading worship. I was almost in tears as I struggled to focus on supporting my notes and keeping accurate rhythm on my guitar. Surprisingly, our deacon, Fred, complimented my singing and mentioned the anointing he felt. I just shook my head in humble gratitude that I could even get through the service. I was expectant  and hopeful that today, my breathing would be more relaxed and I could record some more demos of my new worship songs.

   As I was enjoying my first cup of morning coffee, I picked up a CD by a beautiful Messianic artist, Carlos Perdomo and started to read the credits of his album. I noticed the name Lynn DeShazo. I remember many worship songs she wrote in the late eighties. I decided to look her up via Google and saw that she is now retired. I went to YouTube to see if there were any videos of her. A video drew my attention, titled, “What a Beautiful Name.” A beautiful dark-haired man, who looked like Jesus, was holding a microphone. Of course I had to check it out being that I covered  that song many times leading worship.  The first thirty seconds began with the man declaring the glory of God’s kingdom. He was dressed in a beautiful white suit and had a commanding voice.  A sweet violin wafted as his powerful voice projected. Accompanying images showed close-ups of people crying, praying and looking stupefied. The beautiful music was so compelling I lifted my hands in worship. The song was not the HillSong version of “What a Beautiful Name,” but was divinely anthemic. Then I looked closely at all the details of the video as the song progressed. The performance looked like it was taking place in an amphitheater packed with thousands of people. I was a bit bedazzled. I also scrutinized the close-up shots of the singer and the syllables did not exactly match the position of his mouth and tongue. This happens with inaccurate lip-syncing. At the end of the video, two people were shown surrendering their lives to Jesus.

      As I quietly pondered the video, I felt compelled to  research his music website and his Wikipedia bio. I did notice that there were several of Elias Grace’s  You Tube videos. They were all very similar, looking perfect and a bit surreal. As I Googled Elias Grace, I found not one Facebook or personal website. I also clicked on the link of his Spotify and the music was from a soulful Black artist. I became very suspicious and I immediately realized that all of this beautiful hoopla was AI generated.

      I praise  God for all the precious people who do sincerely accept Christ as their Savior after watching this video. God can use anything, including AI for His Glory. However as a purist and worship artist myself, let us always remember that satan comes disguised as an angel of light.  

      I am noticing that musically-talentless people are jumping the bandwagon of AI to create their musical  compositions. I am not impressed…at all! I am a purist. I remember the days when I would drive to Belmar Boardwalk on a sunny afternoon with my ministry cat, Baby-Baby, and my Taylor guitar and just sing and strum away to the children and passerbys. A young guy approached me after singing a song. He replied, “I have never heard such a pure voice.” He gave me his email address as he wanted to get to know me better, lol.

     I remember recording my first album with a local, talented producer, Ernie Wilkens. Mariah Carey was the rage and I practiced with her CD every day to strengthen my lungs and increase my vocal range. I was a caregiver to a precious, elderly stroke victim who became a grandfather to me. When “Pop” went to bed, off I’d go to the garage to practice my challenging vocal scales in my Toyota.  After I finished recording my first album,  “I’ll Fly High, I connected with a talented and very sweet man, Jeff. My spiritual mom, Winnie, saw him at a jewelry booth at Collingswood auction and asked if he was a guitar player. He affirmed. Winnie told him that I needed a guitarist to accompany  me and he asked if I had any music. I just happened to have a copy of my CD and he bought it on the spot. When I got home, his message on my answering machine was, “That voice, that voice. You need to learn guitar and accompany yourself.” Jeff had only gotten to my third song, “Tell Me, Tell Me.” I was amazed.

         The next thing I knew, Jeff asked to come over as he wanted to show me how to play the guitar. He taught me the basic chords and left his guitar. “Get comfortable with it every day” he smiled. I fell deeply in love with the guitar and wrote my first song.  Several months later, bored with basic chords, I bought a Jazz chord book and experimented with the beautiful and unique sounds. That year, 2001, I composed worship songs for my second album “Devotion/One Small Warrior.” I also happened to grow in my repertoire of learning  jazz standards and top 40 songs to sing at the area restaurants and coffeehouses. God so blessed my new gift where I was able to support myself without a live-in roommate or  man. 

      So, the reason I am addressing this AI generated video is that it is a precursor of platforms to come. We Christians must be wary and discerning regarding news, world events, entertainment and politics generated by AI. This is not a trivial matter. The book of Revelation: 13:13-15 describes great and mysterious manifestations. I will not go into detail about the complexities, manifestations and power of AI because there are  innumerable articles from Christian journalists, scientists and pastors. We all need to soberly pray and fast about everything we see and encounter online or in the news. The Bible tells us that if it were possible, the very elect would be deceived. Mat 24:24. Jesus told his disciples, “Take heed that no  man deceives you.”

   1 John 4:1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits, whether they are of Good. Because many false prophets are gone out into the world.     

      I checked out more comments under the videos from “Elias Grace.”  I saw not one one person doubting or even mentioning the AI generation. My pastor, Augusto Perez, shared on his podcast last year that he had a dream about a beautiful and gentle man coming out to the world and being lauded as the Messiah by the masses. Papa Augusto said that the Jesus in his dream needed rest from all the traveling and meetings.  Papa Augusto immediately knew that this was not the real Jesus because Jesus now abides in a perfect and glorified body that never tires!

       My friends, I beseech you all to meditate on the scriptures day and night. Ask Holy Spirit to increase your discernment because the antichrist will come like a gentle lamb, beautiful, mesmerizing and supernatural. I also ask musicians and especially worship artists to ask holy Spirit to purify your worship gift. Jesus is a purist and he hates artificiality. I refuse to mix my divine artistry with AI technology. Christian artists, you need to fast and pray about using AI.  Remember the anointing which ensued from the old testament Psalmists and even the Hymn writers.  Get back to the pure basics, practice, commitment and Holy Spirit anointing.  

      One last thing. Ask AI if he wants to acknowledge Jesus Christ, Yashuah HaMachiah as Lord and Savior?

 

TAYLOR AND BEYONCE 

So, I was not expecting to publish a blog today, but after seeing and listening to this video I had to address and share. Secular contaminating propaganda is no surprise to me. I have noticed though ,that even storng  Christian brothers and sisters are lured into the deceptive lures of today’s idolized music icons. Music has incredible influencing power and we all are being drawn  into it.

      I responded on  this YouTube video and pray that our young people will use their brains and quiet  their minds to aks Holy Spirit about what they  admire and follow. May Gen Z shine as lights and receive holy boldness to address their peers about the folly of  deception and idolatry.

    They need to declare Phil. 2 10&11. Every Knee shall BOW & every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord! Rev 21:12 And I saw in the books, according to their works.small & great, stand before God, & the books were opened. And another book was opened which is the book of LIFE. And the dead were judged out of those things written . verse 15 And whoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire. 

    We had better start  admonishing our precious young people because Jesus is coming back soon and if our gown  is spotted and/or wrinkled, we will not  rise with him. Very scary and very serious. 

     I come from the male-oriented world of hard rock, but no longer have any interest in secular music or trends. My desire is to please my Heavenly Father and Jesus. May we ask Holy Spirit to purify our hearts and ask him if there is anything that displeases Him.  He will purge us when we desire it. May Father God strengthen and  cleanse you so you can be  fit for His use!

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Lead Guitarist, Chris Durante

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So,  I met Chris Durante at a church picnic in the summer of 1989 and he asked me if I would front his  Christian hard Rock Band, The Promise. I was just a folk soprano who sang a capella with twin sisters in ursing homes. Who knew that God was preparing me for greater ministry and service  to people through my non profit Brave Flame  Productions.  Chris 's artistry has embellished most of my songs and albums over the years and  we are grateful for the influence and inspiration of the the Holy Spirit through us frail and fragile instruments!

John Mulrenan, producer-engineer, Acorn Digital, Howell, NJ has also been a long-time friend and music partner. He has lent his artistry to my projects on keyboards, piano, bass and programming.  His expertise has been invaluable. He is an underrated and transcendent talent!

And last, but not least is my  talented  husband, Mark, who has been my sound engineer.since we married. His extensive  experience  doing sound for NJ's best  bands has been  a valuable asset to my music. Bless God for giving me such a devoted  husband!

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All People Matter

From singing and comforting elderly, lonely people to mentoring kids from  challenged family backgrounds, Anita understands people.

God Loves People

Areas of Ministry

1982  Nursing Home Ministry

1989   Maximum Security Prisons & Correctional Facilities

The Promise Christian Band

1998   Love in the Name of Christ  Christian non-Profit

Coordinator: Just the Right Touch

One on One Mentoring,  Helping  welfare recipients & displaced homemakers transition to the work force, supplying appropriate business clothing & resumes & mentoring, 

Youth Advocate YAP, Youth Advocate Program.

Mentoring youth in social & life skills: liaison between parents/guardians  with  social service agencies

2002 Vocal & Guitar Instructor 

Beginner to advance vocal instruction

2002-2017  Telephone Book distributor PDC

2005  Brave Flame Productions & Outreach inception non-profit entity

Homeless outreach, food & Clothing, Evangelism, Hospice & Bedside  Ministry, Funeral and Wake Ministry

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Church & Family Events, Private Corporate functions,  First Communion & Baptism  events