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       Anita met Jesus Christ in a tiny Pentecostal church in Silverton, NJ on a Sunday night in April. 1982. A shy non-practicing Catholic girl, in bondage for many years and haunted by many ghosts of  abuse, rape, shame and hopelessness. A glorious healing light burst through that night, even though she trembled under the growling, accusing voice of the  tattoo-biceped, ex marine, who slammed his fist on his  worn pulpit. His glittering black eyes bore through her.

   "If you die tonight in a car accident.. Will you go to heaven or burn in hell?"

       She declared the salvation prayer and in that small church, Anita finally found a loving, accepting family that she had always wanted. She bloomed, making up for many lost years, enrolling in college  and graduating at the top of her class, Magna cum laude.  The earning of that degree was interrupted though, by the courtship with a demented man who threatened to kill her if she didn't marry him.  That domestic violent season which lasted almost two years   nearly took away her  exuberant faith and  new-found  nursing home ministry. But Christ never abandoned her.

Healing took place and resilience set her back on track. She met  lead guitarist, Chris Durante at a church picnic where he invited her to front his Christian rock band with him. The Lord began to hone Anita in her new role as lead vocalist-lyricist of "The Promise" and Chris, her and the band shared the Gospel of Christ to the NJ, PA and NY maximum security prisons, family festivals and community showcases.

Anita also grew in leadership positions, teaching behavior modification classes at Nutri-System Weight Loss Centers and as a youth advocate for  Youth Advocate Program. Just as she was enjoying her life, strange and debilitating  symptoms sent her to the hospital where she was given a diagnosis of Lyme disease. 1992 was riddled with hospital intravaneous Rosephin  treatments and Amomoxicillin antibiotic.

The next several years, with her immune system breaking down and battling many episodes of bronchial infections she almost died from carbon monoxide poisoning from her apartment's broken heater. The carbon monoxide did serious damage to her brain and deep depression set in and she was unable to sustain employment.

 But God wasn't finished with her yet. She found herself once more with hope and found another accepting family at non-profit Christian outreach,  Love in the Name of Christ, in the Fall of 1998.  Executive Director,  Carolyn Eyerman and project Manager, Joan Hodem saw  things in Anita she never knew she had. The six years there taught her even more about people and serving their needs. This was also where her journey with the guitar started!

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Dystonia is a complex, highly variable neurological disorder characterized by involuntary muscle contractions. Dystonia is a range pf movement disorders that involve extended muscle contractions. There may be twisting body movements, tremor and awkward postures. According to my research and personal experience, my Dystonia symptoms were caused my Mercury Amalgam poisoning,  toxic Mold and  nerve damage from carbon monoxide  poisoning. EMF sensitivity and dirty electric can also cause the nervous system to overload.

The main treatment for Dystonia are Botox and DBS Deep Brain Stimulation..

I was diagnosed in 2007 with Dystonia. I was prescribed a muscle relaxant.

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Joy in the Journey

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Chasing 'em down, one at a time...

So, Anita Ivette Ferrer, was a gentle and fragile girl, easily frightened by the Outer Limits electricity monster and intimidated by her mother's raging temper tandtrums. Nonetheless, she had a dream. She sketched and sang and composed poetry  in careful calligraphy hand.

 A traumatic and threatening  encounter with a bullying classmate in her favorite art class shattered her pre-conceived notion that people were kind and could be trusted. The bullying continued till graduation day and she wore her cloak of shame and rejection like a weighted anchor. Doors don't swing open wide for  those who've suffered bullying,  abuse, poverty and/or molestation.

 But  in  April of 1982, Jesus Christ  opened wide  the door of grace and Anita walked through. Decades of deeply ingrained traumas and negative events were assuagged and she began to see more clearly that she had worth and God had a plan for her life..

Enrolling at Brookdale Community College, Anita  discovered that door of favor swung wide open and she rediscovered her poetry, singing and art. No longer fearful and distrusting of people, she was deeply curious and disturbed about injustice and social issues. er professors were impressed with her  empathy and passion to pursue studies in the humanities. Graduating with high honors despite great financial hardship and a violent failed, marriage, Anita knew that the best was yet to come.

     Anita's journey with Christ led her to chase and slay many giants, particularly health.  Lyme Disease  came in 1992 and then  carbon monoxide poisoning almost took her life in  1997.All during this time, Anita chronicled her life events through  her journaling and then came an invitation to learn the guitar.

   Her health lost it;s resilience from the damaging environmental assaults on her nervous system, but her love for composing songs and performing continued. Then were  menntoring broken women,  youth outreach and hospice. Outwardly, it looked as if Anita's continual suffering and down-spiraling health would  diminish her calling, but herdevotion and trust in Christ's promises was her saving grace and anchor.

Despite her present and most daunting giant, oromandibular-TMJ Dystonia from mercury poisoning, she continues to sing, write about and express her gratitude of facing death...and helping others to live!

Anita hopes to find a cure for the Dystonia so that she can travel and tour, speaking and singing about overcoming and getting better with age.Her heart beats for the glorious expectation of God's best through her. She hopes that her music and art will provoke intimacy with Christ and a deep empathy for hurt and broken people. She champions the  underrdog because she is a giant slayer.

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In these turbulent and uncertain times, I must focus on peace.  I am a warrior-soldier, serving under  my commander-in-chef,  Jesus Christ.

 

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So, I was not expecting to publish a blog today, but after seeing and listening to this video I had to address and share. Secular contaminating propaganda is no surprise to me. I have noticed though ,that even storng  Christian brothers and sisters are lured into the deceptive lures of today’s idolized music icons. Music has incredible influencing power and we all are being drawn  into it.

      I responded on  this YouTube video and pray that our young people will use their brains and quiet  their minds to aks Holy Spirit about what they  admire and follow. May Gen Z shine as lights and receive holy boldness to address their peers about the folly of  deception and idolatry.

    They need to declare Phil. 2 10&11. Every Knee shall BOW & every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord! Rev 21:12 And I saw in the books, according to their works.small & great, stand before God, & the books were opened. And another book was opened which is the book of LIFE. And the dead were judged out of those things written . verse 15 And whoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire. 

    We had better start  admonishing our precious young people because Jesus is coming back soon and if our gown  is spotted and/or wrinkled, we will not  rise with him. Very scary and very serious. 

     I come from the male-oriented world of hard rock, but no longer have any interest in secular music or trends. My desire is to please my Heavenly Father and Jesus. May we ask Holy Spirit to purify our hearts and ask him if there is anything that displeases Him.  He will purge us when we desire it. May Father God strengthen and  cleanse you so you can be  fit for His use!

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PRAYER FOR THE BRIDE OF CHRIST, Christ’s Beloved, for the dark times ahead.

 I thank you, Abba  Father for this new day. I will give you thanks and  praise you because you are high and lifted up and  your train fills the temple Isaiah 6:1  

    As great judgment approaches the earth, I do not fear because you said that you are with me. You said I am precious in your sight and you love me.  You honor me  and hear my prayer because I know your name. You grant me long life and salvation .Psalm 91:15 & 16.   

    As I hear of wars and  rumours of wars drawing  near, approaching against me, I am confident to abide in the shelter of El Shaddai, the shadow of your wings. Psalm 91. 1 seek to  abide in your house,all the days o f my life where I can  gaze upon your beauty and inquire in your temple. Psalm 27:4. In my time of trouble, You hide me in your pavilion and set my feet upon the rock. Psalm 27:5.    

 Walking with you, Jesus Yashuah, there will be many afflictions of the righteous, but you Abba Father,  deliver me from out of them all. Psalm 34:19. When the enemy comes in like a flood,  the spirit of Adonai shall lift up a standard against him. Isaiah 59:19. 

    I will not be  afraid of the terror by night, not the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence walking in darkness, notr the destruction that lays waste at noonday. Psalm 91:5&6.    

  You, Abba Father,  will guide me continually. You satisfy my soul in drought. I will be  a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.  Isaiah 58:11. My great trust in you, Abba Father, makes me as a tree planted by the waters, spreading out the roots. The heat burns me not because my leaves are always green and I am not anxious in the year of drought. Jer. 16: 7&8. 

    When I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.  Psalm 37:25 

   Thank you, Father, that you are a wall of fire and the Glory in the midst of us! Zech 2:1

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Praise and worship collection during my difficult health journey. Jazzy-folly and pop rock Gospel originals.

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Christian jazz hip-hop, neo soul and pop-urban . Special guest producer, Reverend Kevin Nunn, Cross Row Productions.

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MY debut album, song collection Produced by Ernie Wilkens, Gary Dates and Daryl Dahrouge. An eclectric collection of folk-rock, jazz hip-hop and jazz rock.

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Lead Guitarist, Chris Durante

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So,  I met Chris Durante at a church picnic in the summer of 1989 and he asked me if I would front his  Christian hard Rock Band, The Promise. I was just a folk soprano who sang a capella with twin sisters in ursing homes. Who knew that God was preparing me for greater ministry and service  to people through my non profit Brave Flame  Productions.  Chris 's artistry has embellished most of my songs and albums over the years and  we are grateful for the influence and inspiration of the the Holy Spirit through us frail and fragile instruments!

John Mulrenan, producer-engineer, Acorn Digital, Howell, NJ has also been a long-time friend and music partner. He has lent his artistry to my projects on keyboards, piano, bass and programming.  His expertise has been invaluable. He is an underrated and transcendent talent!

And last, but not least is my  talented  husband, Mark, who has been my sound engineer.since we married. His extensive  experience  doing sound for NJ's best  bands has been  a valuable asset to my music. Bless God for giving me such a devoted  husband!

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All People Matter

From singing and comforting elderly, lonely people to mentoring kids from  challenged family backgrounds, Anita understands people.

God Loves People

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Areas of Ministry

1982  Nursing Home Ministry

1989   Maximum Security Prisons & Correctional Facilities

The Promise Christian Band

1998   Love in the Name of Christ  Christian non-Profit

Coordinator: Just the Right Touch

One on One Mentoring,  Helping  welfare recipients & displaced homemakers transition to the work force, supplying appropriate business clothing & resumes & mentoring, 

Youth Advocate YAP, Youth Advocate Program.

Mentoring youth in social & life skills: liaison between parents/guardians  with  social service agencies

2002 Vocal & Guitar Instructor 

Beginner to advance vocal instruction

2002-2017  Telephone Book distributor PDC

2005  Brave Flame Productions & Outreach inception non-profit entity

Homeless outreach, food & Clothing, Evangelism, Hospice & Bedside  Ministry, Funeral and Wake Ministry

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Church & Family Events, Private Corporate functions,  First Communion & Baptism  events

 

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Joy in the journey.  I'd always hoped that the road would gently unwind before me as i struggled to ascend to higher heights, while being pushed backwards, by the  continual and daunting symptoms of my many ailments. Just last week, as I was uploading my original songs and past gigs, to this website, i remembered  the anguish and  exhaustion   of supporting myself by delivering telephone books during the  day and  most evenings, I would be performing at the Oakland House, a private  event or a local tavern. My love for composing on the guitar and collaborating on original music with  John DeGrazio and Kyle Hicks saved me from suicidal  thoughts. God always made a way for me to  get fund to produce and record my songs in the studio.  I'll never forget  crying out  to God as I pushed a hand truck loaded with heavy telephone books, wondering why I wasn't touring with my band and respected.   The staggering fatigue from the  Lyme symptoms and  my carbon monoxide poisoning episode made me feel inferior and cursed,  The constant eking out a living wore down my spirits often and i wondered what my destiny was. 

      Angst, disappointment and regret, weighed me down often during my long Dystonia battle. but as I've finally come of age this late in my life, I acquiesce to the reality of Christ being my solid foundation. God's precepts have sheltered me from the sting of hatred, unforgiveness and retaliation. I know that His peace tempers me to have a grateful heart and make the most of every opportunity, however small.  I cherish, Moses' Psalm 90:12.

       Teach us to number our days that we may know wisdom.   

      No need to keep asking  Father God..."why"

       In the past, I often felt ,my creative and musical endeavors were not allowed to bear  the fruit they deserved for whatever reason. i wanted to be successful fashion designer, best selling author, renowned poet or well-loved music icon. too often, my creations had to be postponed indefinitely because of   constant interruptions of lie-threatening illnesses.. Worse yet, fewer and fewer invitations came as people became aware that the TMJ Dystonia symptoms  were diminishing my . I noticed with great anxiety, that my vocal prowess and guitar skill was also strained.  I'd expected  that I'd  get better with age, not worse.

       And so,, I determined in my heart, I would push forward no matter how much it hurt. I could not quit because of what Christ did for me. He destined me to be a conqueror and i was to  be a role model for precious  girls and women whose lives were shattered by trauma. As I scan  the horizon of my future, I'm assured that  He will bring beauty out of the ashes.  Behold, He arose  and redeemed me! 

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