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THE CALLING

       Anita met Jesus Christ in a tiny Pentecostal church in Silverton, NJ on a Sunday night in April. 1982. A shy non-practicing Catholic girl, in bondage for many years and haunted by many ghosts of  abuse, rape, shame and hopelessness. A glorious healing light burst through that night, even though she trembled under the growling, accusing voice of the  tattoo-biceped, ex marine, who slammed his fist on his  worn pulpit. His glittering black eyes bore through her.

   "If you die tonight in a car accident.. Will you go to heaven or burn in hell?"

       She declared the salvation prayer and in that small church, Anita finally found a loving, accepting family that she had always wanted. She bloomed, making up for many lost years, enrolling in college  and graduating at the top of her class, Magna cum laude.  The earning of that degree was interrupted though, by the courtship with a demented man who threatened to kill her if she didn't marry him.  That domestic violent season which lasted almost two years   nearly took away her  exuberant faith and  new-found  nursing home ministry. But Christ never abandoned her.

Healing took place and resilience set her back on track. She met  lead guitarist, Chris Durante at a church picnic where he invited her to front his Christian rock band with him. The Lord began to hone Anita in her new role as lead vocalist-lyricist of "The Promise" and Chris, her and the band shared the Gospel of Christ to the NJ, PA and NY maximum security prisons, family festivals and community showcases.

Anita also grew in leadership positions, teaching behavior modification classes at Nutri-System Weight Loss Centers and as a youth advocate for  Youth Advocate Program. Just as she was enjoying her life, strange and debilitating  symptoms sent her to the hospital where she was given a diagnosis of Lyme disease. 1992 was riddled with hospital intravaneous Rosephin  treatments and Amomoxicillin antibiotic.

The next several years, with her immune system breaking down and battling many episodes of bronchial infections she almost died from carbon monoxide poisoning from her apartment's broken heater. The carbon monoxide did serious damage to her brain and deep depression set in and she was unable to sustain employment.

 But God wasn't finished with her yet. She found herself once more with hope and found another accepting family at non-profit Christian outreach,  Love in the Name of Christ, in the Fall of 1998.  Executive Director,  Carolyn Eyerman and project Manager, Joan Hodem saw  things in Anita she never knew she had. The six years there taught her even more about people and serving their needs. This was also where her journey with the guitar started!

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Joy in the Journey

Giant Slayer

Chasing 'em down, one at a time...

So, Anita Ivette Ferrer, was a gentle and fragile girl, easily frightened by the Outer Limits electricity monster and intimidated by her mother's raging temper tandtrums. Nonetheless, she had a dream. She sketched and sang and composed poetry  in careful calligraphy hand.

 A traumatic and threatening  encounter with a bullying classmate in her favorite art class shattered her pre-conceived notion that people were kind and could be trusted. The bullying continued till graduation day and she wore her cloak of shame and rejection like a weighted anchor. Doors don't swing open wide for  those who've suffered bullying,  abuse, poverty and/or molestation.

 But  in  April of 1982, Jesus Christ  opened wide  the door of grace and Anita walked through. Decades of deeply ingrained traumas and negative events were assuagged and she began to see more clearly that she had worth and God had a plan for her life..

Enrolling at Brookdale Community College, Anita  discovered that door of favor swung wide open and she rediscovered her poetry, singing and art. No longer fearful and distrusting of people, she was deeply curious and disturbed about injustice and social issues. er professors were impressed with her  empathy and passion to pursue studies in the humanities. Graduating with high honors despite great financial hardship and a violent failed, marriage, Anita knew that the best was yet to come.

     Anita's journey with Christ led her to chase and slay many giants, particularly health.  Lyme Disease  came in 1992 and then  carbon monoxide poisoning almost took her life in  1997.All during this time, Anita chronicled her life events through  her journaling and then came an invitation to learn the guitar.

   Her health lost it;s resilience from the damaging environmental assaults on her nervous system, but her love for composing songs and performing continued. Then were  menntoring broken women,  youth outreach and hospice. Outwardly, it looked as if Anita's continual suffering and down-spiraling health would  diminish her calling, but herdevotion and trust in Christ's promises was her saving grace and anchor.

Despite her present and most daunting giant, oromandibular-TMJ Dystonia from mercury poisoning, she continues to sing, write about and express her gratitude of facing death...and helping others to live!

Anita hopes to find a cure for the Dystonia so that she can travel and tour, speaking and singing about overcoming and getting better with age.Her heart beats for the glorious expectation of God's best through her. She hopes that her music and art will provoke intimacy with Christ and a deep empathy for hurt and broken people. She champions the  underrdog because she is a giant slayer.

 

In these turbulent and uncertain times, I must focus on peace.  I am a warrior-soldier, serving under  my commander-in-chef,  Jesus Christ.

 

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TMJ-OROMANDIBULAR DYSTONIA 

So, I’m still dealing with this Oromandibular Dystonia since 2007. Mark and I have been through innumerable medical professionals regarding addressing the often  disabling  and sometimes painful symptoms. In my case the situation has progressed that the upper and lower rear  molars have worn almost to the gum line in some places, causing them to be pointed  Because of the inflamed Trigeminal nerve being so irritated and causing the jaws to open and close, the two molars clamp down on the inside skin of my mouth. The sharp teeth cut the skin and it is extremely painful. Both jaw joints are misaligned and cause big problems when I sing or speak.  I found a bizarre way to cushion my back molar from  cutting into my inside skin: I need to place a  large wad of gum and keep it in place  right under the back molar. This has  helped to avoid the teeth catching and cutting the skin. But, it is very distracting when I have to sing because it falls out of place in the middle of a song and my tongue has to push it back into place.

    I daily have to battle depression and hopelessness because I remember how effortlessly and joyfully I could sing anything, and for hours at a private party. Today,  even speaking and praying causes my jaw and upper  body to convulse. On top of this debilitation,  three past Covid 19 attacks caused my lung capacity to be very challenged. Somehow  the regulation of my body  temperature, ability to tolerate humidity and any changes in Barometric pressure cause the lungs to constrict. My heart has to work very  hard to accommodate air when this constriction is bad.

That all being said, I am a woman of great faith and  believe in the  healing miracles of my precious healer, Jesus Christ. Since I have already done extensive amounts of research on TMJ-Dystonia and lung ailments, and know that usually surgery is what doctors promote, there is no guarantee the surgery will reverse almost 2 decades of extreme damage..

    I also have learned that Spiritual warfare is at the helm of my ailments. Since I was anointed, (by reverend Kevin Nunn, Asbury Pak in 1990), ordained (pastors Leo and Edith Fram, Sandra Gonzalez in 2012) and called to sing and intercede as an intercessor for God’s glory, satan has a bulls-eye target to dishearten and hinder me.

    All glory goes to my Heavenly Father and Jesus, for giving me this gift of worship to record my first and second worship albums. During these nineteen years of great suffering, God  impressed me to write and publish my book about my difficult journey and to record my third worship album, “In the Secret Place.” It is in the secret place of Adonai, El Shaddai and Jesus where I am able to victor over this tremendous, daily physical burden.

Now that I have shared all the details of this battle, I covet your prayers for healing and restoration of my lungs, teeth, gums, Trigeminal nerve and neurotransmitter regulation. I also appreciate you praying about sowing (donation button on my website) into my ministry so I can continue to give Bibles, my music CDs and Christian materials to new believers. I am no longer able to deliver my phone book routes as I did for 15 years because it takes enormous amounts of strength and energy. Now my focus is soul-winning and mentoring. Thank you for your consideration and prayer and God bless you abundantly!

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Addendum: click on the picture to hear my concert with the brothers!

INFORMATION ABOUT DYSTONIA:

Professional singers and musicians do not typically suffer from “TMJ dystonia” as a single combined condition, but rather from two distinct, highly disruptive disorders that can present with overlapping symptoms in the jaw and face: Temporomandibular Joint (TMJ) disorders and Musician’s Focal Dystonia (specifically Oromandibular or Embouchure Dystonia). [1, 2]

While TMJ disorders are structural or musculoskeletal issues causing jaw pain, clicking, and limited movement, focal dystonia is a painless, task-specific neurological disorder that disrupts the brain’s fine motor control over highly practiced musical movements. Because both conditions intensely target the lower face and jaw, they are frequently discussed together in performing arts medicine. The distinct impacts, symptoms, and notable cases for both conditions include:

1. Oromandibular & Embouchure Dystonia (Neurological)

This is a task-specific focal dystonia where the brain sends faulty signals to the jaw, tongue, or lip muscles. It is often painless but can end careers because it causes involuntary muscle contractions strictly when trying to sing or play an instrument. [1, 2, 3]

  • Singer’s / Oromandibular Dystonia: Causes involuntary jaw clamping, opening, or tongue spasms exclusively while speaking or vocalizing.
    • Notable Case: Thomas Wade, a Canadian country singer, lost his ability to sing and speak due to progressive oromandibular dystonia before using intense neuroplasticity exercises to retrain his brain. [1, 2, 3]
  • Embouchure Dystonia: Primarily strikes brass and woodwind players, causing jaw tremors, involuntary mouth puckering, or “lip-locking” when forming a mouth position on a mouthpiece. [1, 2]

2. Temporomandibular Joint (TMJ / TMD) Disorders (Musculoskeletal)

How Nerve Damage Links to Oromandibular Dystonia

  • Trigeminal Nerve Role: The Trigeminal Nerve (CN V) provides sensory innervation to the face, mouth, and nasal cavity, as well as motor control for the muscles of mastication (chewing). [1]
  • Trigeminal Sensory Nuclear Complex: Signals from a damaged, compressed, or irritated trigeminal nerve feed into the brainstem’s trigeminal sensory nuclear complex, disrupting normal motor output to the lower face and jaw. [1]
  • Peripherally-Induced Dystonia: Nerve injury—whether from vascular compression, dental procedures, extractions, or facial trauma—can lead to maladaptive neuroplasticity and involuntary muscle contractions in the jaw, tongue, and lower face. [1, 2, 3]

Common Symptoms

  • Involuntary jaw closing, jaw opening, or sideways jaw deviation
  • Spastic tongue movements or protrusion (lingual dystonia)
  • Difficulty or pain while speaking, chewing, or swallowing
  • Overlap with or misdiagnosis as TMJ dysfunction, bruxism, or trigeminal neuralgia [1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7]

Management and Treatment Options

  • Neurologist Evaluation: Diagnosis requires a movement disorder specialist or neurologist to evaluate patient history, rule out structural/vascular causes via MRI, and examine reflex patterns. [1, 2, 3]
  • Botulinum Toxin Injections: Often considered the first-line treatment choice for localized muscle spasms in the jaw and lower face. [1, 2]
  • Targeted Medications: Muscle-relaxants, anticholinergics, or oral medications like tetrabenazine may be prescribed depending on whether jaw-closing or tongue involvement predominates. [1, 2]
  • Surgical Interventions: In rare cases involving vascular compression (such as a blood vessel pressing against the nerve), procedures like microvascular decompression or deep brain stimulation are explored. [1, 2]
  • Dental and Physical Support: Custom dental appliances or sensory tricks (such as light touch to the chin or lips) can temporarily alter feedback to reduce spasms. [1, 2]

IF MY PEOPLE…(RACHEM) 

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  So, today is September 10, 2026. Tomorrow, Friday September 11, is the 25th  anniversary of the infamous 9/11 attacks, Twin Towers, Pentagon and Flight 93).    Churches and  civic organizations are preparing to commemorate the horrific attack on our United States of America.
      Soon after I  woke up, I immediately began thinking about  Daniel’s chapter nine repentance prayers and got my Bible to meditate.and wait for  divine insight and understanding.
      I thought about  the sons of Issachar. 1 Chron. 12:32 says that they were men who  understood the times with knowledge  of what Israel should do. They understood how to read the weather and they had political prowess regarding King David.
        Thinking about all this, I went into prayer after reading Daniel’s humble, yet powerful prayer of deep repentance to God. Then I thought about  Ezekiel and the people being taken into captivity by the Baylonians. I thought about the horror of the potential invasion of  Russia and millions of American citizens also being taken by ships away from their homes.    
        Some of you might say, “God would not let this happen to us. Or “We are too powerful for this to happen!” Or God wouldn’t let His bride go through that!”
        Let’s look at God’s requirements for blessings on a nation. As God told Joshua,  7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Also, look at Duet 1:8.
     Obedience to God’s law is mandatory, but so doing that which is right. James 4:7 says,  “to him who knows to do good and does not do it, is sin. Check out Mat 23:2&3.
      So what are we not doing? We have a Godly outward form of our Christian expression. We declare: “If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land”. 1 Chron. 7:14.
      As a journalist who loves Jesus and truth,  I do not see my nation being healed.  Yes, there are pockets of revivals on campuses and in small areas, but we need to look hard, (like the sons of Issachar) and face what truly is occurring!  We are reminded in James 1:27 what God sees as pure religion. Are we caring for our widows and orphans?  Are we  preventing our unborn and new borns from being murdered, (Infanticide). Are we confronting Pedophiles, perverts and satanists from kidnapping, torturing and eating our children? Please do not be offended. Some of you men, may be  Armchair Quarterbacks or woke pastors! I am blessed to know several pastors who are well-informed and prodding their congregations to be true SALT in a contaminated and infected world!! You know who you are:)!
      Tomorrow as you partake of commemorating the 25th anniversary of the September 11 infamous attack. Let us not be as those who went back to business as usual weeks after the poignant church repentance service.  Christian brothers and sisters, we are ripe for  the United States to receive another similar attack if we do not  strategically study, investigate and pray-fast against the silent giant, extreme Muslims, (and extreme Jewish sects that call Christianity hate speech) who want to dominate and annihilate Jehovah God’s directives for our lives.
       I send a clarion call to our men, pastors, bishops, deacons and Messianic Rabbis to seek the Holy Spirit intensely in fasting, deep repentance and strategic prayer. God is very angry about the powerful and quick rise of trans-genderism, sodomy, child-sex-trafficking and especially abortion. He will not bless our nation if we do not put on the brakes to stop these abominations! The small percentage of intercessors alone cannot carry the burden of mountains of Cancerous sin of this nation. ALL of God’s people must unite for there is power in unity!
     I beseech you brother or sister to pay attention and pray about this blog.  We have our advocate, Commander -in-chief, Jesus Yashuah, The Holy Spirit, God’s warring and ministry angels and the Armour of God.  May we victor in the Blood of Jesus and the power of His word. Amen!  

Holy Spirit VS AI 

So, I was not expecting to start the week off with a new blog. I welcomed Father and thanked Him for giving me  the opportunity to  be His conduit . Then suddenly my thoughts turned to AI. INFO WARS, Alex Jones  has been regularly mentioning AI’s  consumption of huge amounts of water and electricity.  I was very curious about  this. What is the method of AIs production? My husband’s pastor,  Frank,  sent an ominous report about how fast  Data centers were proliferating across our nation and even the world.  Protests were also arising regarding the detrimental effects of the Data Centers in small towns, rural communities and farmland.

       I found a very informative YouTube video which describes how the AI Data Centers work. I wish to share some of my insights concerning  AI.

       I have no issue with technology as long as it doesn’t interfere with the work of the Holy Spirit.  I am a purist., When it comes to Almighty God’s desire to see  Heaven influence the earthly realm. According to my Bible, God  garnishes His people with glorious and divine gifts. We also are to be living sacrifices and  to be transformed by the holy Spirit. 1 Cor. 12 gives us great details about all the gifts for the edification of the church.

     From the perspective of  music, art and creativity, I’ve seen  many musicians use AI for their compositions.My husband, Mark refuses to listen to any of Mike Adam’s music.  Gospel artists also are using AI and even pastors used AI for their sermons! (shame on them).

      I believe that AI will diminish our capacity for authenticity and also hinder the Holy Spirit from feely  enduring us with His anointing and power.. I urge my Christian brothers and sisters to  soul search and pray about eschewing the temptation of AI for their Godly pursuits.  God does give us free will and many of us will insist that AI can be used for God’s glory. However the choice is: With what degree of purity and  anointing do we wish our gifts,  saturated in the Holy Spirit, to manifest?  One thing for sure, I do not need AI to shine my gifts! Rest assured that satan will  try to duplicate miracles through AI and this is where God’s children must learn to test the spirits. 1John 1:4.

There are many negative aspects of the Data Centers.  There are environmental, energy and even health concerns relating to the Data Centers. It would be in our best interest to understand and address the issue of a Data center in our area..

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So,  I met Chris Durante at a church picnic in the summer of 1989 and he asked me if I would front his  Christian hard Rock Band, The Promise. I was just a folk soprano who sang a capella with twin sisters in ursing homes. Who knew that God was preparing me for greater ministry and service  to people through my non profit Brave Flame  Productions.  Chris 's artistry has embellished most of my songs and albums over the years and  we are grateful for the influence and inspiration of the the Holy Spirit through us frail and fragile instruments!

John Mulrenan, producer-engineer, Acorn Digital, Howell, NJ has also been a long-time friend and music partner. He has lent his artistry to my projects on keyboards, piano, bass and programming.  His expertise has been invaluable. He is an underrated and transcendent talent!

And last, but not least is my  talented  husband, Mark, who has been my sound engineer.since we married. His extensive  experience  doing sound for NJ's best  bands has been  a valuable asset to my music. Bless God for giving me such a devoted  husband!

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From singing and comforting elderly, lonely people to mentoring kids from  challenged family backgrounds, Anita understands people.

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1982  Nursing Home Ministry

1989   Maximum Security Prisons & Correctional Facilities

The Promise Christian Band

1998   Love in the Name of Christ  Christian non-Profit

Coordinator: Just the Right Touch

One on One Mentoring,  Helping  welfare recipients & displaced homemakers transition to the work force, supplying appropriate business clothing & resumes & mentoring, 

Youth Advocate YAP, Youth Advocate Program.

Mentoring youth in social & life skills: liaison between parents/guardians  with  social service agencies

2002 Vocal & Guitar Instructor 

Beginner to advance vocal instruction

2002-2017  Telephone Book distributor PDC

2005  Brave Flame Productions & Outreach inception non-profit entity

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