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Aug 7 2023

About the Father’s Business

So, I fell upon a YouTube video today as I was preparing to ask the Lord what He wanted me to do. My eyes fell upon a video from America’s got Talent show where people from all over the world…

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Jun 24 2023

TOO HEAVENLY-MINDED, (And No Earthly Good)

15 What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? 15 Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. 16 If…

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May 8 2023

THINK on THESE THINGS

Monarch butterflies spread their wings as the temperature warms Monday prior to being released into nature. (Shmuel Thaler — Santa Cruz Sentinel)

whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if…

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Apr 15 2023

DUMBED DOWN or BRIGHT-EYED and BUSHY TAILED

So I haven’t posted any blogs in awhile as hubby Mark and I have been battling staggering fatigue from the Chem trails here in NJ and the effects of Covid. I am a warrior and regardless of daunting health challenges…

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Jan 15 2023

TRANSITIONING

So it has been a very challenging two years for Mark and I as we prepare to move permanently to Georgia. We have made quite a few trips with our trailer and we are down to our last wall units…

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Dec 17 2022

BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER

Hello precious girl or woman! Did you know you were meant for a royal heritage and destiny?

       If you are in a dark season, I wish to share with you how special you are that there is nothing in this…

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Dec 10 2022

FALL FORWARD

FALL FORWARD and MAKE a DIFFERENCE

I’m finally enjoying some rest and relaxation after a very challenging three weeks working with my husband at or retreat property in Georgia. The 18 hour (two day ride in the back of our…

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Nov 9 2022

I CAN STILL CRY

  Greetings in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ I’m still waging a war against the present affliction, ,Dystonia, since 2007. Though My ability to pursue my formerly active gigging  schedule has been temporarily  curtailed, I know the  my message… Read more
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Sep 2 2022

WHAT IT’S LIKE to LIVE with a Movement Disorder

So, I am still praying and believing that one day soon I will be relieved of these tormenting tongue, neck a mad esophageal spasms. Those of us who endure a movement disorder are still misunderstood. Despite the plethora of information…

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Aug 1 2022

Be FRUITFUL!

So, a dear friend sent me a very informative link about food storage after the grid shuts down. Preparing for very hard times is becoming a priority for wise people and I am thankful that I have women friends who…

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Jun 17 2022

Marching to the Beat of a Different Drum

 

Journal Entry, Monday, June 21, 2021

It’s already midway through the year. For those of us enduring long seasons of difficult health, our lives may became nothing more than a blur of mindless, boring chores and nondescript activity. We may…

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Jun 8 2022

THE CURE

Checking on my Facebook emails a few days ago, I saw a picture of Jada Pinket Smith. The post announced the suicide death of Miss USA 2019, Cheslie Kryst. I could not believe that such a beautiful , talented and…

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Joy in the journey.  I'd always hoped that the road would gently unwind before me as i struggled to ascend to higher heights, while being pushed backwards, by the  continual and daunting symptoms of my many ailments. Just last week, as I was uploading my original songs and past gigs, to this website, i remembered  the anguish and  exhaustion   of supporting myself by delivering telephone books during the  day and  most evenings, I would be performing at the Oakland House, a private  event or a local tavern. My love for composing on the guitar and collaborating on original music with  John DeGrazio and Kyle Hicks saved me from suicidal  thoughts. God always made a way for me to  get fund to produce and record my songs in the studio.  I'll never forget  crying out  to God as I pushed a hand truck loaded with heavy telephone books, wondering why I wasn't touring with my band and respected.   The staggering fatigue from the  Lyme symptoms and  my carbon monoxide poisoning episode made me feel inferior and cursed,  The constant eking out a living wore down my spirits often and i wondered what my destiny was. 

      Angst, disappointment and regret, weighed me down often during my long Dystonia battle. but as I've finally come of age this late in my life, I acquiesce to the reality of Christ being my solid foundation. God's precepts have sheltered me from the sting of hatred, unforgiveness and retaliation. I know that His peace tempers me to have a grateful heart and make the most of every opportunity, however small.  I cherish, Moses' Psalm 90:12.

       Teach us to number our days that we may know wisdom.   

      No need to keep asking  Father God..."why"

       In the past, I often felt ,my creative and musical endeavors were not allowed to bear  the fruit they deserved for whatever reason. i wanted to be successful fashion designer, best selling author, renowned poet or well-loved music icon. too often, my creations had to be postponed indefinitely because of   constant interruptions of lie-threatening illnesses.. Worse yet, fewer and fewer invitations came as people became aware that the TMJ Dystonia symptoms  were diminishing my . I noticed with great anxiety, that my vocal prowess and guitar skill was also strained.  I'd expected  that I'd  get better with age, not worse.

       And so,, I determined in my heart, I would push forward no matter how much it hurt. I could not quit because of what Christ did for me. He destined me to be a conqueror and i was to  be a role model for precious  girls and women whose lives were shattered by trauma. As I scan  the horizon of my future, I'm assured that  He will bring beauty out of the ashes.  Behold, He arose  and redeemed me! 

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